Thursday, September 30, 2004

A lack of preperation on your part

Does not constitute an emergency on my part. My boss emailed me yesterday asking for some information that was going to take a while to collate. Of course the need was pressing and she was a bit miffed when I went to get some tea and to speak to a former boss who referred a hire prospect to me. Why does everyone live by the theory that nothing is more productive than the last minute? Of course I got the information to her, but it was for a 2005 budget that is due today. We began discussions on this budget six weeks ago, and I had my needs assessed four weeks ago and had my answers taken care of. My boss' other direct report didn't have anything finalized until last night. I guess I should have used my powers of extra sensory perception to realize that they were going to need to know how many hours my employees had spent helping them out over the course of the last two months. Of course the hours don't include the entire week I spent trying to streamline their work process for them. Something they all "were going to get around to, but never had a chance."

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

Vision of the Future

OK, so we are going to take a stroll down possibility lane... This one is about renewability.

I see a wholistic future where man stops thinking about right now and starts thinking about the future. Where renewable resources are the name of the game and sharing is common place, not just for playgrounds. Imagine the usability of photosynthesis for electricity. (article here: http://www.sciencenews.org/articles/20040605/fob2.asp ). Now in my city of the future, this has been refined and it is not necessary to isolate the plant proteins to generate electricity. Rather, a form of bacteria does the job for us. This bacteria is then imbedded in the cladding of most structures so that it can make use of outdoor light to generate electricity for that structure. Self sufficient sky scrapers don't require a single watt from electricity providers, rather they harness the sun. Even the glass on the outside of buildings is imbedded with the bacteria depending on the need for opacity. Should a person inside the building need to darken the room, they flood the glass with bacteria until the window is opaque and the bacteria has maximum collection power on the outside of the building. Want a slight tint, ok, just ease off on the levels. All of the electricity is either stored in batteries or used for the various needs in the building, up to and including heating the water.

Water, the very building block of life is recycled through the building and sewage is treated using sewage specific bacteria (sewbac) to sanitize it while retaining necessary nutrients to give the phobac nutrients required for survival as well as the necessary water. Any water not reclaimed this way is then used to water roof top gardens that would supply fresh vegetables, fruit, flowers, etc.

Air, or specifically oxygen is the byproduct of photosynthesis during the day, so this is pumped into the ventilation system in order to create cleaner, fresher air for breathing. At night, the buildings give big sighs of relief as the night time byproduct of photosynthesis is CO2. This is extuinguished from the building through vents in the roof.

High density living not only becomes popular, but desirable for all. The bigger the building, the easier it is to collect the energy required. Single family dwellings wouldn't provide the necessary surface area to create a self sustained environment. High density doesn't necessarily mean tight living quarters. Each unit could be as much as 3000 square feet, and the larger the unit, the more sustainability its outside walls/windows would offer. Imagine 3 story homes housed within a sky scraper. Lighting would be enhanced through fiber optic channeling from the exterior walls allowing for in door gardens, sun bathing, etc. All lamps would emit full spectrum light to help ensure phobac usage is maximized.

Transportation has gone completely electric. Cars are not only quiet, but quick. This is current technology we are talking about ( http://travel2.nytimes.com/mem/travel/article-page.html?res=9B01E3DC123AF93AA2575AC0A9659C8B63 ). Cars are charged for free whether at home or work by the photobacteria (Phobac) when hooked up to their parking spots. Additionally, all windows and the exterior contain phobac to charge while parked outside or on the road. In urban centers, belonging to a flex system ( www.flexcar.com )allows you to access a flex car from anywhere so that you do not need to own your own vehicle, rather you are sort of taxi driving yourself. You find the nearest eligible vehicle and away you go. Each of these vehicles would have the ability (using phobac for opacity) to change window schemes to show eligibility states. (Ready for usable, In Use for not usable.) By sharing cars among large populations, it is easier to keep vehicles at maximum functionality. Public transportation would run on electricity as well. Every street and sidewalk would be infused with phobac and collectors would channel the energy where needed.

Cities become clean air, green places where life is in abundance and even the concrete breathes, giving a new, pleasant meaning to concrete jungle.

Systemic Approach

Got this in an email today. It's kind of long, but very good reading. I really like how this guy takes a systemic approach. It really does answer the question "What does that have to do with the price of paint in rural France?" OK, so no one really asks that question, still fascinating as a whole. I love the real estate predictions made in 1988! Also, the more I hear about Prague, the more I am intrigued. It may be time to brush up on some foreign languages. The following comes from John Maudlin's weekly eletter.


Today we look at the connections between French farming, China, poor economic forecasting, page 16, single derivative thinking and our investments. We wander and wonder far afield in order to get some insight into our own backyard. Let's start in the south of France. I was visiting Bill Bonner, of Daily Reckoning fame, last weekend, deep in the heart of Southern French farming country. Riding on the train to his home in Ouzilly with Tiffani (my daughter and assistant), you could see the countryside pass swiftly out the window. My impression was that French farmers are not so much farmers as they are landscapers. The further from Paris we got, the more the entire landscape seemed to resemble an enormous botanical garden, designed to delight the eye and soul. The fields are neat. The hay is stacked just so. Trees are planted to make the proper visual impact. It is organized. Even the cattle seem to be placed to provide the right ambience. If ever a people deserved to be prosperous farmers by virtue of manifest pride in their craft, then certainly they do. And they would agree. They feel they have a right to some of the largest farm subsidies in the world. Threaten those subsidies and they quickly and aggressively protest. The End of Farm Subsidies As we drove to the rather picturesque town of Montmorillon where Bill could buy a gallon of paint for $80 that sells for $20 in the US, I noted that the forces of demographic change were going to overwhelm the pastoral peace. It is simply a matter of time. But it will not be a pretty thing. It was not that long ago, "just over there," Bill pointed out, "that there were mass demonstrations, burning of tires and so on, at the hint of cuts." Change, at least that which threatens a lifestyle, is not easily accepted in most societies. Whether it is union workers seeing their jobs go to China or farmers losing their subsidies, change is not welcome. This week, the World Trade Organization ruled that Europe is unfairly subsidizing sugar (they clearly are) and that the United States is unfairly subsidizing cotton (we clearly are, which is shameful for a country that promotes free trade). There will be much wrangling and negotiating, but eventually those subsidies are going to come down. And when they do, farmers in third world developing countries will get a chance to earn a better living. But farmers in Europe, the US and Japan will have to adjust to some rather painful changes. The subsidies will go, not because it is the right thing to do or because developed countries want to allow third world farmers a better life, but because at some point in the future there will simply be no money in the governmental coffers. Today it is sugar and cotton. But tomorrow it will be other agricultural items. European governments, as well as the US, are going to use this as a cover to lower these subsidies over time. It is not because they have it in for the poor farmer, but because there are going to be difficult choices in the future. Farm subsidies or pensions? Count the votes to see who wins. There are more elderly than there are farmers. A whole lot of something's will have to give to fund government guaranteed benefits and health care, and among them will be the farm subsidies.

The Demographic Imperative Why will that be? Let's review a few paragraphs on demographics and aging that I wrote in Bull's Eye Investing. And after a few more comments which might appear a bit doom and gloomish, let's see why things will not turn out as we think today. There is opportunity in these problems. "Let's next look at a lengthy report entitled "The 2003 Aging Vulnerability Index" by Neil Howe and Richard Jackson. (Howe was co-author of the seminal books on generational behavior trends, Generations and The Fourth Turning.) "The report analyzes the cost of public pension funds (like Social Security, the state retirement funds mentioned earlier, etc.) for 12 different developed countries. It then analyzes how the various countries will fare in the future, factoring in their economies, taxes, costs, and the actual circumstances surrounding retirement. (For instance, it makes a difference whether you are likely to be supported by your kids or out on your own.) "In short, it clearly shows us that there will be staggering budget problems for these countries, and some more than others. The report categorizes Australia, the United Kingdom, and the United States as low vulnerability countries. Given what we know of potential U.S. problems from an aging population, this means the report posits grim news for certain countries, especially the mainstay countries in Europe (France, Germany, Italy, Spain, and the Netherlands). Jackson and Howe give a whole new meaning to the concept of "Old Europe." "Let's look at a few salient items: Today, there are 30 pension-eligible elders in the developed world for every 100 working age adults. By the year 2040, there will be 70. In Italy, Japan, and Spain, the fastest-aging countries, there will be 100. In other words, there will be as many retirees as workers. This rising old age dependency ratio will translate into sharply rising costs for pay-as you- go retirement programs--and a heavy burden on the budget, on the economy, and on working age adults in any country that does not take serious steps to prepare. . . . Public benefits to the elderly will reach an average of 25 percent of GDP in the developed countries by 2040, double today's level. . . . In Japan, they will reach 27 percent of GDP; in France, they will reach 29 percent; and in Italy and Spain, they will exceed 30 percent. "This growth will throw into question the sustainability of today's retirement systems--and indeed, society's very ability to provide a decent standard of living for the old without overburdening the young. . . . It is unclear whether they can change course without economic and social turmoil. (Emphasis mine) "For most of history, the elderly--here defined as adults aged 60 and over--comprised only a tiny fraction of the population, never more than 5 percent in any country. Today in the developed countries, they comprise 20 percent. Forty years from now, the share will reach roughly 35 percent. And that's just the average. In Japan and some of the fast-aging countries of continental Europe, where the median age is expected to exceed 50, the share will be approaching 50 percent. "Today, looking at the data, the five main economies of the European Union spend about 15 percent of their GDP on public benefits to the elderly. This will rise rapidly to almost 30 percent by 2040. Japanese benefits will rise 250 percent to 27 percent in 2040 from today's "mere" 11.8 percent. How do you pay for such increases? If the increase were paid for entirely by tax hikes, not one European country would pay less than 50 percent of its GDP in taxes, and France would be at 62 percent. By comparison, the U.S. tax share of GDP would rise from 33 percent to 44 percent (according to the report; I assume this includes all level of taxes). Japan's taxes would be 46 percent of GDP. "It should be clear to everyone that such an outcome would be an utter economic disaster. Taxes for the working population would be consuming 80 to 90 percent of their income. It would be an economic death spiral. Whatever economic growth might be possible in an aging United States, Europe, or Japan would be completely squelched by such high taxes. The "giant whooshing sound" would be that of young workers leaving for more favorable working and tax conditions. "If the increase in benefit costs were paid for entirely in cuts to other spending projects, Japan would see its public benefits rise to 66 percent of total public spending, France and the United States to 53 percent, and Germany to 49 percent. Today, these expenditures are all around 31 percent. What do you cut? In the United States, you might cut defense spending, but there is little to cut in Europe and Japan. Education? Welfare? Parks? Transportation? Medical or health programs for the working? It gets so very ugly... "Since such an outcome (50 percent of GDP for pensions) is impossible, long before that type of debacle is reached, other solutions, painful as they are, will have been chosen. Europe is already spending a very small percentage of its budget on defense. As one wag puts it, they will be faced with the choice of "guns or rocking chairs." With a declining population, they will be hard-pressed to find enough bodies to man their military as it currently exists. Unless they unwind their pension promises, European countries will play a smaller role in the world of the future, notwithstanding the view from France. The role of Asia, especially China and India, will be far more significant in the future world of our children... "In short, for the world economy to grow, developing countries are going to have to look to themselves for growth. The aging developed countries will simply not provide the growth engine that they provided for the latter half of the twentieth century. For forward-looking investors, that means there will be real business growth opportunities in the emerging markets and those countries that can sell to them."

The Rule of Page 16 Let's hold this thought for a few minutes and look at the problems of economic forecasting. Forecasting economic events is a pretty tough business. What makes it particularly tough is that the consensus is usually wrong. As human beings, we seem to be herd animals, which is especially true for economists. Witness that a perfect 50 out of 50 of the Blue Chip Economists simply did not forecast the last recession, in spite of an inverted yield curve appearing 12 months earlier. And if the consensus somehow manages to be right, there is still little profit potential. It is what Donald Coxe, of the BMO Financial Group, calls the Rule of Page 16: "You neither make nor lose serious money by the outcome of a story on Page One. You make or lose serious money from the outcome of a story that's now on Page 16 but is headed for Page One." Right now, there is too much bearishness on the dollar. Long-term (over the next year), that would include me. But when everyone "knows" something, where is the person on the other side of the trade? You could see that dollar rise in the near term. When people are once again on the dollar band wagon, I will be happier about my bearish dollar call. But being a herd of one or two is not necessarily the answer. Witness that Gregory Mankiw, the very smart and capable gentleman who is now the chairman of President Bush's Council of Economic Advisors, and David Weill of Harvard published a paper in 1988 that showed that housing values were going to fall 47% in real terms by 2007. They lined up the demographics of the "baby bust" generation with housing prices and said there would be less demand for housing. The data seemed to show them that housing demand would grow more slowly on the 90s than for any previous period in the last 40 years. (The Economist, 09-04) They took the single derivative - the single dimension - of fewer babies and came up with their forecast. Of course, increased immigration, lower interest rates, Federal programs to make housing more affordable and the belief that housing is the best investment all combined to disprove their thesis. It is this penchant for other factors to come along and mess with our nice, neat charts that makes life so difficult for analysts. The trade deficit, by most thinking, should be killing the dollar. And it has dropped significantly against the Euro and many other currencies over the last two years, but that drop stalled out. But there are other factors which re clearly holding the dollar up. For how long, who knows? But there are clearly more factors than the trade deficit which affect the dollar. In this letter for the last two weeks we have looked at single derivative thinking: taking one trend or concept and forecasting that into the future without regard as to other factors which may impact the trend. As I look back on my own business and investing mistakes and missed opportunities (and I have had my ample share), the vast majority of them have come from that very problem. As an example, Donald Coxe writes: "For instance, it is easy to look at the oil crisis which will face us in the future decades. This week Ed Hyman's ISI, reporting on the latest International Energy Agency statistics, advises that world oil demand since 1988 is up 25%, from 64.95 million b/d to 82.15 million b/d. In those sixteen years, European consumption is up exactly 16%, US consumption up 18%, Japan's up 25%, and China's up 175%. Yes, China's Great Leap Forward in Oil Demand comes off a small base, but its absolute consumption has risen more than the US in that period--with American consumption up 3.08 million b/d and China's up 3.98 million b/d. China now consumes more oil than Japan--7.6% of the world total, compared with 7.4% for the world's second largest economy. Economics 101: all commodity prices are set at the margin. "China's fast-growing demand for oil at a time Russian oil production is constrained by Putin Petropower Politics has had enormous impact. By moving in just four years from being an oil exporter to being the world's second largest oil importer, China turned a short-term global oil surplus into a long-term global deficit. As The Wall Street Journal reported yesterday, neither OPEC nor Big Oil are reinvesting their remarkable oil profits in exploration and development." I have seen estimates that suggest world oil demand will grow yet another 25%. Where will the oil come from? The short answer is that it will not come at even $50 a barrel oil. Maybe at some much higher price, but that will short circuit world growth and demand. But given that, oil could drop significantly if there is a worldwide slowdown. It would be a temporary blip on the charts when viewed a hundred years from now, but it will give today's traders a lot of excess stomach acid. Of course, it is not just oil. China's surging economic expansion, which accounted for all the growth in world demand for copper, 99% of growth for nickel and 95% of growth for steel. There is no question that when you look at the very daunting problems facing the US, Europe and Japan - debt, aging populations, oil, massive bureaucracies, etc. - you could get discouraged. The data and trends I cited above are quite real. But it is my bet they do not come to pass. At least not in a way we can conceive of today. If a Trend is Unsustainable, It Will Stop For one thing, they simply cannot. You cannot have a modern economy where citizens pay 80-90% in taxes, or government spending is 75% of GDP. It would utterly collapse long before we ever get to such a situation. Western governments are going to have to face up, sooner or later, to massive restructuring of their obligations. This week, polls showed that East German voters strongly resist a cut in their unemployment benefits. Yet even the liberal Schroeder knows that Germany cannot continue along its current path without experiencing severe problems and recessions. Change will either come through the ballot box as enough voters wake up to the facts that they simply cannot afford their current government benefits and total expenditures, or it will be forced upon them by the realities of the marketplace. This is not a problem that will force events next year or perhaps even this decade, but the longer that dealing with the problems are avoided, the more wrenching the changes that will follow. Denial will not keep change from coming to your doorstep or pasture. This will happen not just in Germany, but in every major Western nation. Space does not permit a speculation here about those changes, but they will engender trends, even if outwardly uncomfortable, from which astute investors will be able to profit. There will also be places (both economic and physical) which thinking people should avoid. Second, one man's problem is another man's opportunity. Higher oil prices means that other forms of energy will become more competitive and replace oil. Considering how massive the world wide use of oil and gas is, that change is going to mean massive new investment opportunities. My side bet is that within 40-50 years we will be using some form of electrical energy production system that has yet to be invented. The fact that Western nations will not be the engine for world growth, that emerging market countries will have to develop their own consumer led growth, is an opportunity to stake out new investment horizons. If an aging developed world has less to spend, then the opportunity will be to those companies and countries who can manufacture products and services that are needed for less costs. Why does simple paint cost $80 a gallon in rural France? The answer is government. Rather randomly, my daughter and I sat at what looked to be a nice sidewalk restaurant in Paris. Turns out that it is owned by an ex-pat American. He has owned restaurants in France for 8 years. He is selling out and moving. "Regulations are killing me. Every time I turn around it is a new rule or another tax. It is driving me crazy," he complained. "It just keeps getting worse every year." Is he coming back to the States? Hardly. He is going to that "new" frontier city of freedom, Prague, in the Czech Republic. I have close friends who have specialized in doing business in developing countries and done so for decades. They now spend much of their time traveling throughout Eastern Europe, in search of new business. They extol the potential prospects. They acknowledge the problems and risks, but think there is a real window of opportunity.

Monday, September 27, 2004

Technology and Nature

This is a great article! It is absolutely wonderful that technology is beginning to use nature as a source for its needs. Consider the renewability, the environmental friendliness and the ability to still use incredibly cool gadgets.

BOSTON - "Eat your spinach," Mom used to say. "It will make your muscles grow, power your laptop and recharge your cell phone... " OK. So nobody's Mom said those last two things. But researchers at the Massachusetts Institute of Technology (news - web sites) say they have used spinach to harness a plant's ability to convert sunlight into energy for the first time, creating a device that may one day power laptops, mobile phones and more.


Photosynthesis, the process by which plants use light beams for energy rather than eating food like animals, has been known to scientists for decades.

But attempts to combine the organic with the electronic had always failed: Isolate the photosynthetic proteins that capture the energy from sunlight, and they die. Inject the water and salt needed to keep the proteins alive, and the electronic equipment is destroyed.

That was until Shuguang Zhang, associate director of MIT's Center for Biomedical Engineering, discovered that protein building blocks called detergent peptides could be manipulated to keep the proteins alive up to three weeks while in contact with electronics.

"Stabilizing the protein is crucial," said Zhang, who collaborated with researchers from MIT, the University of Tennessee and the U.S. Naval Research Laboratory, including electrical engineers, nanotechnology experts and biologists. "Detergent peptide turned out to be a wonderful material to keep proteins intact."

The scientists, whose findings were first reported by in NanoLetters, a publication of the American Chemical Society, then created a "spinach sandwich."

Why spinach?

In reality, any number of plants could have been used. But the researchers chose spinach because "it is cheap and is easily available from the grocery store," Zhang said.

The spinach was ground up and purified to isolate a protein deep within the spinach cells.

A top layer of glass was coated underneath with a conductive material and a thin layer of gold to aid the chemical reaction. In the middle, the spinach-peptide mixture sits on a soft, organic semiconductor that prevents electrical shorts and protects the protein complexes from a bottom layer of metal.

By shining laser light on the "sandwich," researchers were able to generate a tiny current. While one device by itself can't generate much energy, billions of them together could produce enough electricity to power a device.

"It's like a penny," Zhang said. "One penny is not much use, but 1 billion pennies is a lot of money."

Practical applications are still a decade or so away, but the advantages include the technology's lightweight qualities, portability and environmental friendliness. "There is no waste," Zhang said.

The researchers suggest the technology could be used as a backup energy supply for battery-powered portable devices.

"We have crossed the first hurdle of successfully integrating a photosynthetic protein molecular complex with a solid-state electronic device," said Marc Baldo, an assistant professor of electrical engineering and computer science at MIT.



Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Domestic Partner Rights

It was reported by the San Diego Union Tribune that Governor Arnold Schwarzenneger signed this bill today:

AB 2208 from Assemblywoman Christine Kehoe, D-San Diego, upgrades the health benefits of same-sex registered partners that are now only available to married couples. Current law requires insurers to offer domestic partners coverage equivalent to a dependent rather than a spouse.
Shannon Minter, legal director for National Center for Lesbian Rights, praised the signing.
"There are still many businesses all across the state that do not provide any health insurance benefits to domestic partners, much less equal ones," he said. "This bill cuts straight to the source and makes it unlawful for insurers to issue any insurance policies that do not provide equal coverage to domestic partners and spouses."

I think this is absolutely fantastic. It has really bothered me that the Republican party has gone away from supporting gay rights lately. This move by Ahnold shows that Reps can give a damn. I hope that more states follow suit.

Getting ID'd at 30+

So I went for a walk today with my wife and we decided to stop by Rite Aid on the way home to pick up a few things. While we were there, I saw that they had Ketel One Vodka on special, so decided to pick some up. We went up to the front counter to pay and they asked for my ID. This always makes me very happy. At 32, when you get ID'd it's a compliment, not an annoyance. So I whipped out the ID and handed it over. She seemed fine with this, then asked for my wife's. I knew that Suzanne had left her purse at home, so asked why as I am the one buying, was the one holding it, etc. She told me that her company's policy is that everyone present at purchase has to have ID. This is about as stupid as can be in a drug store. We are not talking about a liquor store, a bar, etc. This is a drug store that sells diapers, depends, suppositories, etc. I said keep it and we walked off.

According to the policy, if I were to walk in with a child in a stroller, I would not be able to buy alcohol. Even if that child were an infant. While it is very complimentary that the register monkey thought my wife might be under the age of 21 (she's about to turn 31), I find this horrible customer service.

I have since emailed the Board of Directors and am interested in seeing if I get a response. I doubt it, as they don't necessarily stake their reputation on service. In the mean time, boycott Rite Aid.

Update: I have received an email from the corporate secretary. She stated that I should be hearing from the regional management shortly. I will keep you posted.

Monday, September 13, 2004

Love and Marriage

Why would anyone refuse two people the opportunity to love? And try to refuse them the right to take care of each other within the guidelines of the law? Medical insurance, inheritance, etc. are not transferrable to gay couples the way they are to straight couples. That is complete bullshit! The institution of marriage is not about the church, it hasn't been for some time. Marriage as it is bandied about in the political atmosphere is a legally binding contract between two people that states that each party agrees to try and take care of each other and that they are both culpable for some things.

However, the sacrament of marriage is a different matter. The sacrament of marriage is about binding two people under God. I can not speak His mind, but I have a hard time believing that he has problems with either version of marriage as both suggest love.

If marriage was only about the sacrament, then Atheists would be barred from the institution just as quickly as gays. If it were only about a binding contract, then no one would give a damn about it having to be a man and a woman. In either scenario, people need to open their eyes and realize that what is important here is love. Two people love each other enough to commit to a lifetime together, let them show that commitment in front of family and friends just like the rest of us. If God is going to pass judgement, let Him do it in His way and His time. In the mean time, let people love and live.

Can You Spare Some Change?

I know that my wife and I are new to Hillcrest, and we probably look like the North County we just left, but I didn't think that we would be seen as begger bait. We were walking to get something for dinner tonight, and there was a woman sitting next to an ATM machine. She didn't look homeless like the real homeless look, just a bit disheveld and tired. This woman was pretty big, so walking any distance would tire her out. She sees the two of us coming, and pants at us, "Can you spare some change so I can get a bus, I am trying to get to the hospital." I almost got the sense that she was trying look as if she needed medical attention right away.

This is at the corner of University and 6th Ave, which is less than one block from Scripps Mercy Hospital and a very short walk from UCSD Medical Center. I point at the nice big, tall building and say "The hospital is right there." Apparently, this was translated as "You are the most disgusting being on earth," because she gave me a seriously evil eye.

"I wasn't trying to get to that hospital!" She says. It is always interesting to me how beggers will try and argue money out of you. It is one thing to try and rely on the charity to others, but to argue and try and guilt it out of someone seems incredibly stupid to me. So when she tried to ask again, I interrupted with "Oh, sorry" and my wife and I continued on our merry way.

High Blood Pressure

Saw my trainer today. He gave me a bit of a hard time about not having been in the gym for three weeks. I went yesterday for the first time, didn't have too bad a workout. But my blood pressure is still high and I am feeling my workout today. The good news is that my hiatus managed to lose me a pound net. Pretty good, considering I wasn't doing any cardio. Still this damn BP thing is killing me. Possibly literally. I don't eat a lot of salt in my diet, I am trying like mad to get my weight down and I have increased my veggie and fruit intake. Still, no movement. I felt that when I was at 242, high BP was understandable and that I needed to get the weight down. Now I am at 228 and still am running 140/90. I understand the move, etc is going to stress me a bit, but I always had low BP, not high. So I will hit the gym again tonight, see if I can't burn some more calories. My Chipotle Barbacoa Burrito especially. In my defense, it was all I had to eat today.

Saturday, September 11, 2004

Patriotism in an Unlikely Place

Here I am at 6:30 in the morning. Can't sleep in again, don't need to be up. So I find myself listening to the radio. It is, of course, 9:30 on the East Coast on 9/11, so they are doing memorials. I find myself thinking about patriotism. Prior to that fateful day, apathy towards the United States was revered. If you were from somewhere else, you were infinitely cooler. No one said they loved their country.

Remember Armageddon? Not the best movie in the world, but it makes a very valid point. When the movie required scenes of patriotism and national pride, they are forced to look two+ generations ago to the Fifties. Suddenly there are scenes of kids on antique bikes, amber waves of grain with old pickups, and to make sure we drive the point home, a picture of JFK.

Where were modern images of patriotism? Problem is that there weren't any at the time. The United States were very united in their apathy about country. As a culture, we taught ourselves to hate being an "American".

Interesting thing about being an American, it includes two entire continents. Brazilians are Americans. Canadians are Americans. Mexicans are Americans (which makes the politically correct statement Mexican-American redundant.) Even in this, we do not identify ourselves as a country, rather as part of a continent. I am susceptible and culpable as well. When I was in Europe, I told people I came from California. California is cool, the United States is not.

No wonder most of the civilized world as well as large portions of the underdeveloped world hates us. We hate ourselves. Everyone does everything they can to stop identifying themselves as Americans and to be something else.

So last night, I met a true African-American and found patriotism in a very unlikely place. I spent about half an hour trying to hail a cab near downtown San Diego. What's the deal here, doesn't anyone hail cabbies anymore? I was standing in the middle of the street, waiving both arms at a cabbie who had his in service light on, and he drove right by me! Apparently I have the powers of invisibility from time to time. Finally I ran up to a blue cab and asked the guy if he could take me downtown. I got in, after noticing his accent.

"Where are you from originally?" I always say originally any more, because I have gotten a very rude response from more than a few old German women when I have asked them where they were from. They all looked indignant when I asked and told me they were from here. So I usually would follow up with a response that went along the lines of "Really, because it sounded like you had a German accent. I was born in Germany, and lived there for nine years, so I am always interested in hearing where the Germans I encounter are from." This never generates an apology, but usually gets them to open up and tell where in Germany they were from. By adding the originally, I can usually forgoe the explanation.

"I am from Africa." The cabbie spoke in that overly articulate way that all of the Africans I have met have of speaking. It makes English sound almost beautiful to me.

"Where in Africa?" I was very interested. Being a San Diegan, I am rarely in a cab. I can't stand sitting in the cab in silence, so I usually try to speak to the cabbies.

"Ethiopia." At this point, I was beginning to think this guy didn't want to talk to me, and just wanted a fare. Still I pursued the issue as an interest.

"Really, My last cab trip was in Atlanta in April. That cabbie was also an African who won a lottery to come to the United States. I think he was from Zimbabwe, though it may have been Kenya. What brought you from Ethiopia to San Diego?" I don't know what part of what I said had made a difference, but suddenly the cabbie was much more interested in conversation.

"It was a very long and difficult journey. I didn't get a chance to win a lottery, they only started doing that five or so years ago. I decided I needed to leave, and left everything behind. It was like being born again. I, and five friends of mine were all determined to leave Ethiopia, so we tried to get into either the United States or Canada. I was able to get into either, but the U.S. offered first, so I came here." I asked him if all of his friends were in San Diego. "No, I have one in Denver, one in Las Vegas, and two in Washington DC. We still keep in touch. Talking to them is like being born again, I feel younger. We all left Ethiopia for political reasons and came to this great country. Here we can work, we can choose what we want. I love this wonderful country."

And there it was. A true patriot. Here was someone who really loved being here. This wasn't patriotism because of a tragedy in NYC. This wasn't feigned, this was someone who truly loved his (adopted) country. A cabbie taught me a whole lot in the course of a five dollar ride.

Friday, September 03, 2004

Television

I have not watched network shitcoms and dramas for approximately six years now. No Seinfeld, no Friends, no CSI, no "reality" tv. And I find that I am better for it. I may be at a loss from time to time when a coworker quotes a show. Usually the conversation goes like this:

"That's like that episode of Seinfeld. You know the one, right?"

"Sorry, I have only seen about two episodes of Seinfeld, and I don't remember either of them very well." Suddenly I get this very blank stare. It's sort of like a deer in the headlights look. Apparently I just said something so completely foreign it required a paradigm shift without a clutch.

"Umm... Well, I guess you would have had to have seen the show to get it." This is usually followed by an exit from the conversation that reminds me of watching paratroopers leaving a plane. The paratrooper jumps out the back of a huge plane and quickly recedes into the distance. Shortly after that, I'll see the same employee talking excitedly with someone who saw the episode.

Still, it is a small price to pay. I admit my hypocrisies (usually). I watch my football during the season. I love some British comedies. But I don't record an entire week's worth of television so that I can watch it on the weekend. I don't have to be home at a certain time in order to catch West Wing or Sopranos.

I would like to think of it as making friends instead of watching friends, but that doesn't always hold true. I am shunned for not having seen Survivor or Big Brother. I get this look as though I deign myself too good for television, like TV is suddenly the identifier of the working class and if you don't watch it, then you are a snob.

Small price. This blog is an attempt to pursue a passion instead of a paycheck. I write here hoping that it will force me to wright. Instead of talking about what others have written and acted out, I am trying to write it myself. I wonder, how many dreams have been killed by prime time? How many artisans gave it up for a shitcom? I am amazed at how many people I have talked to that will say "I wanted to be an artist/writer/painter/sculptor/musician/insert creative occupation here once," then allowed the mundane box to blunt passion. I am not insisting everyone killing their televisions, I just don't think that particular addiction is very healthy for the spirit, so keep it in moderation. Watch television as a way to unwind, or as background to something else, not at the expense of life. Prime time starts at 8:00 and goes until 11:00. That means that if the average viewer watches primetime Monday through Thursday, they are watching television for 12 hours every week. This is completely without sports, without weekend television, etc. When I think of that 12 hours gone every week, it frightens me. 12 hours is the equivalent of four 3 unit classes at a college. That is like working an extra six days every month.

And yet, try and tell a TV Addict about this, and they will tell you "I don't watch that much television, just a couple of shows." It is almost like a mantra to convince addicts that there are worse out there. Pursue the matter and an addict becomes very defensive. And yet, I still get shunned at the water cooler because I can't relate to last night's Leno. If Americans are spending all this time watching television, commuting to work, and working 40+ hours a week, no wonder they are getting fat. Let's break down the destruction of a society: Feed them something that will keep them inactive this way they will become out of shape. Feed them something that will distract them from the life at hand, that way they will not try to improve themselves. Feed them something that will take up 10% (based on primetime 4 nights a week, this goes up to almost 15% at six nights a week) of their time outside of work, that way they will not have time to think of doing something else. Suddenly there isn't any desire to be somebody. Instead we watch somebodies and act like they are intimate parts of our lives.

I'll quite with this: If television is so great, why don't we ever hear about actors that can't miss a show? I guess they are too busy being, not watching.